Relationships are overrated .

I was wrong . and I can't make it right no more .

Running to hospital back and forth is exhausting .

Seeing her suffer on the hospital bed is even worse .
Palpitations ,shortness of breathe, nonstop withdrawing blood just drenching her soul away.
Every single word whispered is just so tear-jerking and heart-breaking .
Looking at the tubes, catheters, syringes and bruises on a person who meant so much for me makes me shiver. and helpless.

It comes to a point that I know is time for me to be stronger ,
for her,
and for my mom .

Thoughts .

So there are times where I would just sit and keep pondering the relationships between me and my deary friends, and gone crazy.
Would it be just my stupid sensitive thoughts or what my friends say really affects my fucking mood . idk.
Some say that friends always tell the truth even you feel uncomfortable listening it .
What about when friends never tell you the truth straight to your face and you noticed, hence the awkwardness.
Hmm...

and you always be the one trying hard to resolve the knot.

bunny says hi.

There are certain things you can only learn through being bad .

Saying that I' treating him as trash when I actually care so much -

and that, hurts me fuck .

Intentionally, i smashed a blackberry phone on the floor .